saddest day as a mother thus far...

I experienced the worst thing a mother of a new baby could ever experience.  I left my son at the day care in the gym I attend.  After about 40 mins, "Colin's mom please come to the day care" came over the loud speaker. Except it sounded like paulina's mom. (not very well spoken). When I went into the day care to get him, he was hysterical. We have only been attending for a week now and he has never been upset before. I was able to finall concole him after a few minutes. My friend and I decided to get a shake, and Colin started crying again. I looked down at him, and he had a hand print bruise on his leg, it was a small one, like a young child squeezed him. 

I felt my entire world crash down around me. My friend and I went into the day care and confronted the staff. They had nothing to say, not a word. Couldnt explain what had happened. Said he stayed in the infant area, and no one touched him.

At that I went and got the manager of the gym. We walked back to the day care, and still NOTHING. A little boy steps forward to tell me that he saw Colin in the toddler area. Finally the woman admitted she took him over there to watch him. Obviously she did not do that. All I got was an "I am sorry, we are sorry"

I left the gym crying. Couldnt speak or produce thought. My friend went home, she lives basically across the street. Told her husband what happened and he immediately went to the gym. He was speaking to a different manager, and he received emails to the district and regional managers.

I emailed them when I got home, a nice long email, telling them step by step what happened. How I am not sorry is not a good enough answer. This morning I received an email back, stating how this situation was terrible, and to allow them to look further into the sitution.

I feel as if I failed my son. I am here to protect him from the evils of this world, and I failed to do that. I failed to prevent someone else from hurting him. I get it, a little kid did it to him, but, the people I was paying to watch him, did not do their job, I trusted they would keep an eye on my defenseless little man. Yet they did not!! My heart is completely broken, I am also filled with a rage that can not be put to words. Something must happen, or I will completely lose my cool I will no longer be a professional type person, I will let the side of me out that has not been loose for a long long time.