nine months....36 weeks

So here we are...nine months! 36 weeks, (well i'm a little behind and we're actually almost 37 weeks) I can't believe I am at the end. I feel like I just started this blog, but six months later, and the end is in sight.

Had my nine month check up, starting to thin out and I am a "fingertip" dilated. My mom Ricky & dad came to the appointment, (when I say dad, I mean he sat in the car because he couldnt handle being in the room during a pelvic exam...he made that VERY CLEAR haha) we discussed dates, inducing etc. I had a growth ultrasound done, yeah at 36 weeks my little man is not so little at 7lbs!! 7lbs!! I almost died, he is in the 87th percentile, which is why we discussed inducing. Im still in shock three days later.

Here is the new plan:

If the bugger doesn't come on his own sooner, I will be going to the hospital on May 13th (mothers day) at 2pm to start the process. I will receive the gel to completely efface me around 2pm, pitocin will be administered around 4 am, and hopefully by lunch time on the 14th Colin will be here. If he isn't here then we'll at least have an idea on when he will.

Two weeks from now, I will be holding my son. OMG, two weeks....two fing weeks...I think I might have a break down now.... Here are some pictures :)

2 months, 5 months, and 9 months



another nine month picture



Colin's room all finished!!!!

Update...Uterine Distress

Hello Bed Rest......I am not happy to see you!!

Last Friday when I went to see my dr for the 3d ultrasound, I had let him know that I was cramping. So instead of the 3D, the ran a nonstress test, did a pelvic exam, and he had a regular ultrasound scheduled. He put me on bed rest till today which was my follow up appointment. The cramping hasnt stopped and now there is a piercing pain in my privates. So off to L&D I went.

After four hours of sitting in a hospital bed and having a couple ultrasounds done (according to the hospital my son the porker is 6lb15oz and os measuring at 37 weeks), my dr came to see me. He told me my uterus is trying to go into labor. So bed rest for the remainder. He stated I could go into labor tomorrow, or at 39 weeks. When I asked the odds of going early. He basically laughed, bc he knew I knew the answer. I told him my mom was going away the first week of May, told me that if she wanted to be a part of the delivery he didnt think that was a good idea. (shes going to loooovee that)

I will be full term in 10 days, so he doesnt want to do anything to stop the process because if moose man wants to come, moose man is going to come. This is just so insane to me, I think I am still in shock, because I have no reaction to what is going on. I am eerily calm. Once it all sets in that my son could literally be here any day, I might stalk freaking out. From excitement of course.

The one thing that terrifies me in all this, was I had a plan. I knew which hospital I was going to delivery at, I've already registered. I knew how I wanted things to go. Well he told me today, he thinks if I go early I should delivery at a different hospital. two reasons: 1. the neonatal at this other hopstal is better 2. he doesnt want to miss the delivery. He has been my OB for 10 years, and he doesnt want to send someone who is on call to my delivery when hes stuck at a different hospital. Now those of you who knows me, know that I am a control freak, so to be told I might have to change things, but keep it up in the air, Yeah not ok in my book.

All I want is for my son to be safe, and for things to go smoothly. SO I will do whatever it takes to ensure that. :)

Heres to up to 4 weeks on bed rest!! EEK

emotions, stretch marks & cramps.....long one

Not a lot of people know this about me, but I am extremely emotional. I take things to heart very easily, even when I shouldn't. I get upset easy, and my feelings get hurt the easiest. So when people ask how my pregnancy has been I always tell them relatively easy. No complaints. No morning sickness, none of these rare diseases I've been learning about etc. I do that because I dont want people to think I am a martyr. When in all actuality. Ive had a rough pregnancy, emotionally a rough pregnancy. A few other things here and there but mostly my emotions have really taken off.

When I first became pregnant, the first trimester was a great depression for me. I was so depressed, I had the opportunity to go to a TAYLOR SWIFT concert for free and didnt go because I stayed in bed crying. Now if you know me at all, you know that is completely unheard of. Things tapered off a little during second trimester, and would slowly rise but nothing as bad as the first. You hear people say third trimester everything comes back full circle. I have been relatively lucky thus far. I have had a few, well ok, maybe more than a few, flare ups of my emotional side, this morning was a true testimony to that!

I was in the bathroom doing my morning routine, sitting on the toliet checking my belly button with a hand held mirror to make sure that it hasn't become an outie. (im neurotic, and terrified to have one) I move the mirror down, and BAM there they are....THREE NEW STRETCH MARKS, ON MY STOMACH. I've been semi-ok with the stretch marks on my hips, my boobs, my thighs, oh and my inner thighs. Only was I ok with these because my belly was unscathed. Well that all changed today. I had a mental breakdown. Yes I only have about 5 weeks left. So why now??? Why do these little bastard stretch marks feel like it is ok to invade my belly now!!! I have followed the rules, cocoa butter, bought the Palmers stretch mark lotion. all lies! none of it works, if you're going to get them you're going to get them. I look like the damn purple people eater.

Of course my sweet sweet honey tries to make me feel better takes the mirror away. Tells me its ok, they wont stay this nasty color, and they will fade and barely been seen. Yeah, you try and calm a neurotic, over emotional, hysterical pregnant chick. Not going to happen.

Next fabulous topic. Menstrual like cramps...um I havent had my period in nine months, why was I up all night with cramps like when I was 16 not on birth control. Holy awful. I swear no one tells you this stuff! haha They keep the bad stuff to themselves, and just go on and on and on about how great pregnancy is. Yes, the end result is fabulous, you have created this human, this beautiful little baby thats yours forever. BUT everything leading up to it, well not everything ;-) is crappy. Luckily, I have a dr appointment so I can ask why I feel like someone is stabbing my ovaries when Im pregnant and not suppose to get period cramps! haha

On a happy happy joy joy note. I have an ultra sound today. Hopefully I get to see my handsome little bugger!!!! <3 <3 <3

who would have thought these would be my issues!

ok, so talk about "white people problems" haha Im sitting here looking up customer reviews on different bottles. Seriously?! haha

Im torn. I dont know which brand to go to, Dr Browns or Avent. I received both at my baby shower, because I registered for both, because when you finally get to that section you are so over the registry and I didnt know you arent suppose to have different types of bottles, because nipples are different and babies grown custom to certain things, geez louise.

So heres my white person problem. Dr. Browns are suppose to be better, BUT harder to wash. Well I do not have a dish washer and I hand wash everything. If Dr. Browns are harder to wash, that means ugh harder for me to wash by hand. Im just venting and being a snob right now. Its just with a newborn am I really going to want to deal, NO! but I will. because really who has the right to complain about something so not important. Plus I can sterilize, so everything will be fine.

I just wanted to vent a little, who knew all these little things mattered. One thing I do NOT want to become that mother that over thinks, over processes, and over spends for useless shit. My mom raised me with what was available at the time, which lets face it, in the 80s baby stuff wasnt as fancy as it now, and I am healthy. So why freak out. I see some of the things moms talk about on their blogs, or websites and I think to myself, are you fucking kidding me?! You really can justify spending 1000 on a stroller because you like the way it looks? NO. not ok.

Ok dont know how I got there from Dr Browns vs Avent! haha obviously I have more on my mind than just the right types of bottles.

Blair's bday && babyshower!

First things First.....Saturday was one of my favorites birthday's. Blair. It was such an awesome day. First we went to the beach HAHA and we received a free exfoliating job, so we decided pool was our best option. What a time we had, after laying around talking drinking (nonalcholic for me obviously) and lounging by the pool for about four hours, we went home to rest up. After our rest we walked through the delray affair, craziness, to Boston's YUMMO!!! && as tradition goes Mrs. Field's Cookie cake. Happiest Birthday Blair. I love you to the moon.



Happy Birthday <3



Then sunday came along. One of the greatest most fabulous days of my life. My Baby Shower. When I tell you my sisters, mom & amy worked their asses off, that could possibly be an understatement. Everything I had imagined was blown away. From seeing everyone, to the decorations, to the food, and good lord the gifts. I cried probably three times. haha The hours flew by, it just made my heart so happy to know so many people love my son before he is even here. To have 30 of my closest friends and family in one place to celebrate (should be spoil) my son just...ugh god im going to start crying again. I dont even think I could begin to tell you how wonderful my day was. I had crystal there to photograph so as soon as she posts some pictures Ill share those. I have some of the day, and some of the aftermath, it is going to take me a good week to get organized. Colin's room is over flowing with stuff, the clothes, the clothes alone, are going to take at least five loads to wash.

 

34 Weeks

Today was a good day in doctor appointment land. I have an appointment with the OB and my specialist. Ive put on the three lbs I lost, so im at a total of 28 lbs gained. Not too bad. Only complaint I have about this appointment was well...I had a pelvic exam! I had a mild contraction at the office, and they wanted to check my cervix. Well, when talking to friends and such, no one tells you about these lovely pelvic exams. Basically, I sat on my fists so my bottom was off the chair, and the nurse had her fist in my who ha!! talk about pain. She felt so bad, she said since im only 34 weeks my cervix is WAYYYYY back...well, the further back means the further back she went...not fun.

Well the specialist was so happy with my sugars I know only have to prick my finger twice a day!! woo hoo, this made my little finger tips smile! Pricking your finger four times a day and remembering when you started eating, and remembering to prick with pregnancy brain! ha yeah right...I can barely remember what I did yesterday let alone prick my finger one hour after I started eating. But now its only twice a day!! me like the sound of that.

I scheduled my next appointments which will be when Im NINE MONTHS!!! NINE MONTHS...yes you read that right, and yes i wrote it in caps because holy shiz!! I can't believe Ill be nine months pregnant in two weeks. Wasn't I just starting this blog because I decided mommyhood was what I wanted?!

I wanted to give a shout out to my friend Michele, her water broke this afternoon and is on the way to meeting her little muffin Hailey!

I will be posting in a couple days...I have a very very exciting weekend ahead of myself, not sure if this is redundant or not...but guess what Im telling you anyway...thats why you read this right!? haha One of my favorites is having her birthday saturday!! Its a bittersweet celebration, as she's moving away in June, so this birthday has to be a great one!!! Then sunday is my babyshower...another freak out!!! BABYSHOWER!! I feel like once the showers over, Colin can come..Once that is over, and we are situated Ill be ready for him. He needs to bake for a few more weeks but mentally I am ready....

I've had like three or four people within the last few days say "ha there goes your sleep" sorry but you realize I am not sleeping now anyways? & he'll be worth every single sleepless night (see me in a month if I still feel this way hahaha) ugh so I am just rambling now! Write to ya on Sunday ;-)

34 weeks on thursday....

34 weeks and counting....so this may come across mean or insensitive....but I am so over being pregnant. Done, over it and just want to see his face. I am now so uncomfortable, hes pushing on my right ribs all day and night, either a leg or an arm, and it hurts. I can't breathe, I lose my breath so easily. I walked the dog last night, and my legs hurt today! My center of gravity is off so Im bumping into things, falling over, its a nightmare.

I just have to keep reminding myself there's at most six weeks left. I just want to meet him, I want to see his face, his eyes, his nose, his little fingers and toes. Most of all, I want to kiss him and tell him I love him. It makes me cry to think I still have to wait to see him, after all this time, 8 1/2 months of waiting, and waiting. Now knowing how close the end is, sucks. haha Plus my whole life....pregnancy is nine months, no it is not, it is 10. You give give when you are 40 weeks, 40 weeks = 10 months. basically an entire year!!

Ugh I know this post is so not my usual excitement, sorry about that. Its just reality. There are a few exciting things happening though. Saturday is Blair's birthday!! We're spending the day with her, since its her last birthday here :( Then Sunday is Colin's day!! his baby shower is finally here. 5 days and its here. I can't believe it....so just because im writing a rather depressing post, doesnt mean im depressed haha. I just want to meet my son.

OH && our appointment on Friday, my son the brat refused to show his face. We had one good one, && its below!!

33 Weeks...

&& Counting!!! You are getting more and more active in my belly, and bigger also. We have another attempt at 3D pictures tomorrow. Hopefully you listen to your mother, and do well since daddy's birthday is Saturday!!

Your favorite new past time is kicking me in the ribs! Its so nice of you, BRAT, and always my right rib. People can now feel you moving around and kicking and shifting. Its so funny, and honestly, creepy to watch my stomach just move around. Daddy thinks its the funniest when my stomach looks oblong instead of normal.

I have found it is now more difficult for me to catch my breath, I walk slower than I have ever walked in my life.

Work has been so so crazy, Ive been slammed. Havent had a moment to breathe, not to mention when I get home theres something EVERY day and almost every day on weekends. This week, we have daddys birthday & your first easter :) :) So we will be at both grandparents houses sunday, after being out all night saturday.

After the appointment tomorrow Ill post some pictures. <3 can't wait to see your handsome face again