7 more days, cereal, raspberries, & formula

7 more days until my honey gets home. Slowest. six. days. of. my. life. The most terrible, depressive, boring days of my life. At least in two days I get my mom from the airport, spend 5 days with her, and then my better half comes home <3

While he was gone, I started Colin on his cereal like the dr suggested. HA he hatttteeeddd it at first. But 1/2 hr later, I got four very very small spoonfuls in him. Bathed then went to bed. He slept like shit and kept me up all night. Wanted to shank myself. Tonight, I tried cereal again tonight, and not only did he eat it, but he opened his mouth for the spoon and let out a couple "mmmm"s. ugh die....

The little man and Mr. B had a fun little play date today, colin was grabbing him and mr. b was kissing on him. lol during this play time, Colin gave me a few raspberries. I almost fell over....hes is getting too big I cant even process it. Tonight, I gave him his bottle....six, yes six ounces. what happened to my little boy who ate 2 -3 oz ?!

 

I also learned tonight that a moms hearing is super sonic. I could hear him whining over the tv, and when I say whining it was like a low muffled whine.

 

Ive also been working so hard to lose this baby weight, gym, diet everything. Today it all went down the gym, no go, I was exhausted, diet hahaha - i ate pasta, I even made a sugar free fat free chocolate pudding and ate the whole thing.....being depressed SUCKS!!

 



Four Month Big Boy status

Colin had his four month check up today which equals shots, & measurements. C-man is 13.13lbs, 25in, and his head 43cm (big head) lol

He did so good with his shots, he was given two shots and liquid drink. The first shot he didnt react, the second he cried hysteria for about 30 seconds and then he was done. Hes been sleeping pretty much all day, and has a low grade fever but I know its because of the shots.

We start food tonight, that should be exciting. Need to decide what to try. I might just start with cereal, and work from there. But Ill keep everyone posted on that.

Here are some pictures of my handsome sweet sweet boy:

missing my honey...

So here I am four days in and I dont feel any better about it. My Honey had to go away for work, away as in another country :( makes me so sad, I thought after the first couple od days it would get better and its only getting worse. Im not exactly sure why it is so hard for me. I know it has to do with the baby, my hormones, and the fact I barely ever spend any time away from him. Waking up and go to sleep without the man I love is one of the hardest things ever.  I  have to thank Apple, because without face time, my heart would be so much more sad than it is, if that is even possible. Im afraid Colin is not going to recognize him when he gets back, two weeks is a long time to a little baby who is just learning things. - which bring sme to the next topic....

I take colin for his FOUR MONTH CHECK UP!! are you kidding me...the new things, he is 3/4s rolling over...im terrified hell do it while his daddy is gone, and hell miss it. & at our last appointment, the dr mentioned we'd be talking about food at this appointment. My honey is going to miss his first feeding. I promised to video it, so he can see it.

It just breaks my heart....makes me so sad. I cry almost every night going to bed, and waking up. During the day I've been trying my best to keep myself busy busy busy, and its working, but as soon as home, and im here, and looking at the door I feel like he should be here. I feel so pathetic. Never in my life, was I the kind of person who cant be alone, its not specifically the being alone, its the being without my best friend, my better half, the love of my life.

Thanks for listening to my lameness..LOL

Look forward till tomorrow when I update Colin's four month info...SO INSANE!! where has four months gone?

OHHH!!! real quick, my gym did the right thing, and the woman who was watching colin in the kid care is no longer taking care of the children. Made me so happy that they took me seriously, listened to what was going on and handled it accordingly.

Had my High school reunion....that was interesting. We drank and hung out, and went to blue martini and i fucking kidding myself, I hate that fing place, had one drink and left. Ended up drinking a litttttle more than I thought I would, was HUNG over driving honey to the airport--hung over from crying and drinking. But it was nice to see everyone, and meet new people.