Mommy & me, outings & Six weeks, OH MY!!

On Wednesday Colin & I went to our first mommy and me class. It was so great to be around other moms, especially new ones. There was a little boy who was 4 days older then Colin, one that was two weeks old, and a few that were almost four months. It was nice, we discussed different things like starting routines, breast feeding and any other topic you could think of. It was really nice.

After that we went to the mall, with Amy & Nicole. We walked and walked and walked. It was so great to get out see my friends and have adult time. The craziest things happen at Town Center Mall. First, I had to feed Colin, so I sat down and did what I had to do. There was this creepy man, who saw I was feeding him, sat down in the chair across from me, watched me feed him, once I was done, he got up and walked away!!! CREEP SHOW!! I couldnt believe it. Disgusting!! I almost died. After walking the mall for almost two hours. I drove down to sunrise.

I met Sevie at the sawgrass mall, we walked around for a little bit. Then we ran over to David's Bridal to pick out Bridesmaid dresses, I can't believe her wedding is only four months away. That is insane, I feel like her and Mike just got engaged and now were picking dresses out. It went well and we found the dress the we are going to wear. It was nice to spend some time with sev since I dont get to see her all the time.

What a day that was. Colin was NOT a happy camper, he cried for the entire hour car ride home! I wanted to pull my hair out. I love being a mom, but when he cries, and cries and cries and theres nothing I can do, I want to kill. It breaks my heart yet at the same time I become rageful. :-/ I feel terrible for getting so angry, but afer speaking to other moms I know Im not the only one out there.

Now, Moose man is six weeks old. I have my six week post-op appointment, which means hopefully I get cleared to workout, ANNNDDDD have sexy time!! hahahahah Can not wait for both. Im ready to work off this post baby weight. Enough about me, on to my moose. Ugh I can't believe he is six weeks old. I feel like every post I say that and it might sound redundant but it is crazy to me. His newest thing is he SMILES. not a little smirk, a full mouth open smile. and let me tell you, it is the cutest smile in the whole wide world.

You always hear people say you never know a love like a mothers love for her child and let me tell you. The love I feel for my son, is something I never thought I could feel. I would do anything for him, and want him to be the greatest he can be and I do do whatever I can to make that happen. Not to mention his kisses are the best around.

Here is a picture of the boog smiling:

B...my Sweet Sweet B

You leave tomorrow morning, on the greatest adventure. I want to wish you nothing but the best, I hope B-more (as people from Baltimore call it) is everything you hoped for and more. I am going to miss you so very much, but please know, Ricky and I demand you embrace this move to the fullest. I have told you before, and will continue you to tell you I admire you for your courage, and wish I at some point in my life, I would have done what you are doing. I love you, and I look forward to hearing all the stories you have about your move. I wish you the best of luck. x0

5 weeks

My boog is five weeks now. He's cooing more, and is awake much longer during the days now. Which is awesome for me more time with C-man. Last night was a BIG night for Colin, a Big sad Night for momma!! Coling slept in his crib, there is no going back now. He slept in there from 12-6 but then can into our bedroom because he refused to fall back asleep. So now every sleep, means crib time. Once we start it I can't stop it. Ugh. I love him and it is so hard for me to put him in his own bed, I love him sleeping with me. But I know he can't stay in our room forever. I never thought this would be as difficult as it was. I barely slept, until he came in at 6, I know it will get easier, and it will all be worth it.

I will def, keep everyone posted on how crib sleeping is.

First Father's Day and a Birthday

Yesterday was Rickys first Father's day. Started out with just the four of us hanging out at the house. Relaxing and giving Ricky his present. I made him an impression of Colin's footprint <3

After we had our time together we went to Okeechobee to see my family. We spent majority of the day there. We played pool volleyball, ate and ate some more. After we left my parents we headed down to boca, and spent a couple hours with Ricky's parents.

It is so amazing to me how wonderful of a father Ricky is. He just loves Colin with all his heart, he is such a wonderful man, he puts the baby and me ahead of himself in all matters and it is just such a wonderful feeling to know he loves us so much.



Happiest Birthday To my Best Friend Amy, I love you to the Moon and back!!



Happy one month my love muffin

One month, 31 days. REALLY? I can not believe a month has passed already, I feel like I was just in the hospital. SO crazy! In the last month so many things have changed. Here are some of those things:

He smiles, shows his dimples, frowns, MAKES THE SADDEST FACE EVER(seriously saddest face), moves his eyebrows,
Coos, grunts, & moans
does the frog-legs and arms stretch far out in all different directions
holds his head up during tummy time
Looks at me when I am talking
No longer is cross eyed
has grown from 7.1 20in to 9.5 22in
stays up for two hr intervals
eats every three hours

Favorite things to do are eat, sleep and being held. Hates burping, and he loves his playgym & watching TV.

The last month has been the most incredible month of my life. I dont want to lie and say it has all been smooth sailing, it hasnt. I have spent many nights crying & begging him to sleep. He is still on the schedule he was on in my womb, sleep in the day up at night. One hard habit to break. Some nights I feel like I am failing because I get so upset, but then in the morning when I am clear headed I see his little face and know it is all worth it, and it wont be like this forever. Once I get him on a schedule things will be much easier. He has had gas badly, and could get it out, he would cry for hours, and hours. He is now on Mylicon to help him pass the gas...miracle medicine.

I have to say though I am the luckiest mommy in the world. Ricky is amazing, and I have a great son. He is such a good boy, and he just loves his mommy & daddy.

Happy 4 weeks buddy

Colin is already four weeks old. Insane. I feel like I was just in the hospital being induced but a month has passed already. How crazy my life has changed. I went from worry about what outfit I would be wearing to what cute outfit my son can wear. I wear sweatpants, and dont always wash my hair. But I wouldnt trade it for anything. I just love him more than anything. My family of four is everything I could have ever wanted.

The whole point I made this blog, was to tell my Journey becoming a mother, and what life is like as a mommy. So here are some things you never hear about:

-You are never told about "growth spurts", they are the devil to a new mom. If you are breast feeding, you truly feel like a milk maid, all they do is eat, he was normally eating every 3 hours, when Colin went through his gorwth spurt he ate every hour, and all he did was cry cry cry cry, I did not sleep for 5 days. You think its never going to end, you become depressed, and you think youre a terrible mom. Then one day, its back to normal. As if it never happened. I promise, itll go back to normal. I did some reading on them, and they happen several times throughout the first year.

-Projectile Vomit, your baby wont die. lol The first time Colin projectiled, I freaked out. It was pouring out of his nose and shooting out of his mouth. I had the exorcist as a child.

-Gas. My current situation. Not sure if its gas, or if its acid reflux. Hopefully I find out tomorrow at his four week appointment. My poor muffin man, he eats, then he cries and cries like the growth spurt, but not really. Once he throws up, fart, poos or burps he stops. It really is terrible, theres nothing I can currently do to make him feel better. Night time is the worst. I cant get him to sleep, and I get so upset. I cry, I yell, I curse & feel like a terrible mom. But Im not. I know Im not. I am a good mom. Im the best mom I currently can be, and every day I get better and better. I can't get any worse (I hope) ;-)

Its amazing to see him growing right before my eyes. He now plays in his play gym, and just today was groping the dangle toy on his car seat. He smiles, he stares at his momma, and his daddy. He is starting slowly to become a little man. He loves being held, but some days, just wants to sit in his nap nanny and not be bothered. He loves watching TV and sucking on his paci. I am try to get him to nap in his crib, but I just like looking and cuddling him so much its hard.

He has his four week appointment tomorrow Ill update with pictures and weight and such then. :)