So a week has come and gone, and today I finally have an opportunity to update my blog. Since its been a week, and Colin has been born, this is going to be a long post.

Last Sunday, May 13th at 2o'clock, Ricky & I drove to bethesda hospital. Around 4pm I received Cervidil. Which is a medicine to help thin the cervix and hopefully dilate, I kept that in for a little less than 12 hours. I received my pitocin around 430am. Immediately back labor started. It was so uncomfortable. Only way I can describe it, is imagine if it happens to you, that you are having your menstral cramps in your back, times 100. was more uncomfortable then painful, until about 8. 8am, i started the crying, my back was hurting me, and I couldnt do anything. Not to mention, I had been given an ambian, and only slept for 2 hours. So in the last 48 hours, Ive had about 5 hrs of sleep. Ricky was helping me out of the rocker, into the bed when my OB walked in. Told me he was going to check me and possibly break my water. Well without warning, he broke my water, and thats when the "fun" began. My dr ordered my epidural, well immediately, I was having contractions 1 min apart. I received my epidural in 1.5 hours, and dilated 4 more centimeters. So I was 8cm. Once I received the epidural, it was heavenly. I truly had felt as if I was dying. My mother was in the room, and I was so delirious from pain I did not know she was there. She had to leave, because all I was doing was crying. I wasn't one of those yelling cussing women, I was just crying. Only words I spoke for 1.5 hrs was -I need to shit, not im not shitting in a bed pan, take me to the bathroom. & Im sorry Im such a pussy.....lol yes that was it. No other words were spoken, I couldnt even think to form words. If Ricky had not been in the room with me, there is no way I would have survived. He was amazing. Absolutely incredible. I am the luckiest girl in the world. So, about 20 mins later, I get checked again, I was 9cm and baby was RIGHT there. The nurse (who was amazing) gave ricky a pair of gloves, and he was able to feel Colin before he crowned, We also did 2 practice pushes. about 1/2 hr later, it was time for 2 more practice pushes because I was 10 cm and doc wasnt there yet. So two more practice pushes, and the nurse grabbed my arm, and let me touch him head. One of the most, amazing experiences ever, I screamed thats my baby and just cried with such a joy I could never put to words. The nurse brought a mirror over so I could see what was going on, and to make sure I was pushing correctly. Once OB walked in, we started. Delivery lasted less than 5 mins. One push and our son Colin Patrick Egan, was born May 14th at 12:27pm 7lb 1oz & 21inches.

There is no way to put to words the feeling you get once your child is put on your chest after he/she is born. You always hear people say you immediately fall in love, or never knew a love like you have at that moment. Well that is exactly how it is. I went from someone who didnt want children, to someone who could never imagine my life without the most adorable little boy in the world.

We were so lucky to have such wonderful friends and family. Everyone has been so incredible. Theyve made us dinners, kept us company, checked in on us, brought the little man presents & have just offered their love and support. We love you all, and you know who you are.

This last week, has been amazing. I have never been more obsessed, in love or in awe of a human being. I have decided to breast feed, which honestly is probably the best decision I've ever made. Theres this feeling you have knowing you are providing your child with the nutrients they need to survive. Makes you eat healthier yourself, and its such an awesome bonding experience. Ricky has gone back to work so I am here alone with my handsome baby all day long & I wouldnt want it any other way. We nap together, we snuggle, & I get to stare at him as much as I want. So weird I know, but I am seriously obsessed with him.

Now my blog is going to take a turn, from pregnancy to motherhood :) So excited fot this up coming journey