saddest day as a mother thus far...

I experienced the worst thing a mother of a new baby could ever experience.  I left my son at the day care in the gym I attend.  After about 40 mins, "Colin's mom please come to the day care" came over the loud speaker. Except it sounded like paulina's mom. (not very well spoken). When I went into the day care to get him, he was hysterical. We have only been attending for a week now and he has never been upset before. I was able to finall concole him after a few minutes. My friend and I decided to get a shake, and Colin started crying again. I looked down at him, and he had a hand print bruise on his leg, it was a small one, like a young child squeezed him. 

I felt my entire world crash down around me. My friend and I went into the day care and confronted the staff. They had nothing to say, not a word. Couldnt explain what had happened. Said he stayed in the infant area, and no one touched him.

At that I went and got the manager of the gym. We walked back to the day care, and still NOTHING. A little boy steps forward to tell me that he saw Colin in the toddler area. Finally the woman admitted she took him over there to watch him. Obviously she did not do that. All I got was an "I am sorry, we are sorry"

I left the gym crying. Couldnt speak or produce thought. My friend went home, she lives basically across the street. Told her husband what happened and he immediately went to the gym. He was speaking to a different manager, and he received emails to the district and regional managers.

I emailed them when I got home, a nice long email, telling them step by step what happened. How I am not sorry is not a good enough answer. This morning I received an email back, stating how this situation was terrible, and to allow them to look further into the sitution.

I feel as if I failed my son. I am here to protect him from the evils of this world, and I failed to do that. I failed to prevent someone else from hurting him. I get it, a little kid did it to him, but, the people I was paying to watch him, did not do their job, I trusted they would keep an eye on my defenseless little man. Yet they did not!! My heart is completely broken, I am also filled with a rage that can not be put to words. Something must happen, or I will completely lose my cool I will no longer be a professional type person, I will let the side of me out that has not been loose for a long long time.

Happy Three Months

Three months already, absolutely incredible. Youre favorite things include, kicking your feet, nawing on your hands when you are staring and playing with them, smiling, staring at your momma and your daddy, cooing, napping, eating and playing with your babies (these little blankets that have a bear head attached).

Just tonight you grabbed your feet for the first time, made me cry, all these new things you are doing just make me so happy.

first trip to the zoo

Today was Colin's first trip to the Palm Beach Zoo. We went with nana and Aiden. It was so nice, we got there later in the day around three, it rained for a little so it was cool. The zoo was debuting two new baby Florida Panthers around 530. Well we got lucky and were able to see them because we got to that area just before 5 when the zoo closes. Funniest part of all of this, is these cubs were replacing the panther that died in March, oh that Panther his name was COLIN PATRICK. Are you kidding?! haha two months before Colin was born the panther died...my son, is a reincarnated panther for sure.

We had an amazing time, Aiden enjoyed all the animals, I was able to spend some time with my mom, and Colin was a perfect angel. He cried once, so i fed him lol after feeding him on the airplane on our trip, now I dont care where I feed him. Here are some pictures, I love my little muffin man. He has truly completed my life.

Colins two new favorite things are Airplane and sitting in his little baby snug chair

 

 

almost a month, am I joking??

I can't believe I havent posted on here in almost a month. Who do I think I am? Just a momma whos been sucked into reading about seven books in the last 3 weeks, and took a trip to NH with Colin, started actually really working out, not too busy going or entertaining myself. LOL where to start.....

Colin now weights 12.5lbs, 22inches. Only in the 25th percentile, but thats fine, I'd prefer he wasn't in the 100th, that would equal obese baby pants. We had a great sleep schedule going, but I decided no more nap nanny in bed, hes getting too big and the risk of him rolling over is now greater. So, he decided to retaliate and not sleep, little tard, hes lucky he is cute.

The end of July Colin and I went to New Hampshire to visit my grandparents. Let me tell you, he was an ANGEL. He was a little fussy the way there, (we flew alone) he had ONE bad day while we were there. after that, he was a little boy in heaven. The weather was perfection, we were outside all day everyday except for one when it rained a little. He got to meet his great grandparents, great aunts and one of his coolest cousins (yes tracy Im talking about you!) The flight back, was horrific, it was suppose to take apprx. 7 hours door to door, well it took 13! yes you read that right 13! I wanted to kill someone, break something and punch a wall. Colin was good for the most part, but the last flight home, ha he was miserable. which is understandable, he had a long long day. I was getting nasty looks for breast feeding on the flight, and you know what fuck you lady. I have to feed my chilkd, and prevent his ears from hurting him, so.....take your insecurities, and dirty looks and shove them up your old ass. yes I said it.

Colin has a clogged tear duct, and it has gotten so bad. And as crazy as this is, now he has the discharge in his other eye. So I took him to the dr, and the looked over his eye, and gave me an ointment to hopefully clear it up. *FINGERS CROSSED*

Ive been reading a lot like I said I think its seven books since the beginning of July. Im addicted to reading. I always have been, when he naps I could read a couple hundred pages (I read on my phone so its probbaly really half of that) My sweetie teases me, says that Im going to be that housewife that collects fabio covered books. LOL 

Well Here are some pictures of the muffin. Ugh 6 days and hes three months! I promise to try and update more often than I have been. I have finished all the books Ive wanted sooo itll be easy lol